You played me into thinking I wasnāt worth it guess guessing youād know who I was
Just go about life family love as it is after all it is just keeping on with doing your thing regardless of all that stillā¦
Hope
You understand
Itās not your fault
Itās less happy I wanna feel
But more of this pain I canāt get away from
cause all these girls are the devil
Itās not that I donāt trust you itās just
Well Iāve did this thing already once with you
But all you wanted to do was just to feed off of my energy
Cause you were the one that couldnāt get a grip or take control of your own emotions
After all
But all
You ever wanted was for me to do what you ever wanted to
Wouldnāt you have gave a damn
Cause that was me left with no choice
When I was just trying to do me
When I was just trying to let you be
When couldnāt you just give it a break from this so I can just move on
Cause you were the one starting the problem
Itās not that i donāt hate you itās not I just canāt keep holding onto you like that when all along though meanwhile I thought you were the one
When you showed me it was just another day
Cause all I did was care to love you closely
Me and you and you and me we couldāve been everything on ruling this earth
But in the end
It was done with
After all
You broke my heart
You broke my soul
That hurt me and Iām still feelin you close but
For that reasonā¦
first time likely anyone else to would lose control
Iāve lost my mind so far way too many times
Everything all asideā¦
cause with every positive action you take will bear fruit
To just love as is or get away cause I donāt need any of that negativity Iām alright just writing off to you
Iām alright Writing Off the note Again only writing to you this time
Cause Im never keeping my mind empty
Iām always thinking about you all day
Hoping you like this one this time around
I donāt know what to expect but just keep writing more
Itās like when I act a certain way however it may be itās cause Iām not saying anything and some days I doā¦
Cause if Iām not thinking God Music or My Writing or just creative space or in my heart it isnāt in the right place then what am I doing Iām still me only who am I Iām lost only feeling but because I lost my focus and my heart was out of tune
And if not with my
My Mindā¦ or
my heart
my body leads
By conscious, speaking from the heart at the roll of my tongue
And sometimes I donāt know how to get away if itās cause my mouth is shut
Itās like when I think Good and Feel in The right spirit the place I know when people arenāt in the right mind and theyāre feeling towards me or is that just a thought so I say some thing to learn something to keep in my mind forward and on in my thoughts when sometimes how can I just be
I donāt know what to think about it if itās God or what to uplift my thoughts so I feel like I should say something or is it having the courage of confidence of doing my thing
Open up to them by them I know so much of me
They can be themselves like I donāt think I can do my thing anything if you like itās not your fault nothing is just do you and I wanna respect that cause Iām aware of myself
Itās this everyday thing and I donāt know how to be when I go about my day
And cause when I speak itās like imma run out of things to say but Iām not focusing remember to think with my heart
Itās normal just donāt be weird about at it at all so in all your second personal time do you just as in life now now come on you know better whatās right Itās just the truth we donāt talk about that at all itās just how you go about itā¦ self control within the mind body and spirit āitās not bad to see just donāt touchā
Everything I do who I am pretty much resemble me who I am you just gotta really dig deep enough to care
And not even thatā¦ to begin with I think I just have trust issues I just do who cares and for so many reasons thereās so many things to begin withā¦
When my heart gets aches and acts out mislead or out of place I get lost in what Iām doing and donāt really feel it itās like I need to get more of this feeling am i thinking from heart or am I thinking from my thoughts
Sexualities attraction
Iām being genuine but I wonder if people think Iām lying they rather just speak for me cause then Iād just smile see me for me however you desire
Itās just to put you right in the mind your body your way of being just going to show but those arenāt my intentions Iām just all you need to be in love so your love catches my attention so I notice itās just humans behavior
Sometimes thatās how my body feels but I canāt change its my soul and
Body feels my mind canāt change at all thats how I feel at that moment maybe later Iāll feel better cause I found my way back uplifting thoughts everything that is all good now just is all good itās the mindset they say and so Iāve tried
They say something to get the attention cause you like the attention the touch of my heart
You see
Why I donāt feed into it cause it makes me lose focus I need to concentrate and move forward only keeping one thing above allā¦
with a heart broken is a broken soul
Heavenly queen
And cause Iām trying to move forward I give you my wishes and desires dead inside still as Iām up loving to this day and not bringing the past up I donāt know what to say or do cause Iāve genuinely moved on or donāt know what to say about it all other than itās the past so I set my focus solely on what I love so much that itās so hard to remember or look back to that day but then if not āI donāt go back to the same old habits like beforeā¦ā
Thatās if I give in too much so I need to set myself back a little and rebalance and again
Cause thatās what love is only when your love is just as strong as mine cause can you tell I donāt mean any bad only good I set my intentions only strictly friends cause thatās one way of seeing it in lifeā¦
By the world nowā¦
Not unless itās gonna put you down or talk of someone and bring about a name into context then itās when I have no say you feel me
Itās agree to disagree on most cases
Is it cause they expect you to be a certain way when is it cause you have nothing to say
Itās always you that or you this then how cause when is it that I said something
With a atom of higher love you are good in Gods name
This is my commencement to stay true to the world stating facts and always staying true to yourself always down to earth
youāre in the state of nothingness so you embrace your inner beauty
You are beautiful <33
always listening and Iām always gonna take what you have to say by heart cause I feel you thatās me even if you donāt hear me though
all that asideā¦
still Iām gonna continue to do me to do me as I would normally just as you should to
Keep doing you <33
Sometimes I talk sometimes I donāt
Sometimes Its a fog and I canāt think clear other than to lead by my heart
Sometimes I donāt know how to put these words into say than just to ache
Sometimes my mind plays games thoughts wishing I could say these things
Sometimes my mouth runs off when its just too much at the spur of the moment when itās cause you heard me already before anyone else
Sometimes Iām losing my mind can I remain calm when is it worth the risk of losing your sense of self
sometimes my heart gets out of place so I need to get more in tuned āitās not to be rude about it its just who I amā if when cause I feel like saying hi Iāll say hi if not for you or for your sake if not for mine ācause Iām only trying to make things rightā
Between you and me and me and you
if its how it seems to beā¦ how I may be donāt let it be to your concern you keep doing you ācause it is like what you think how it is is how you see it is what you see is what you getā
pretty much
ācause have a good day hope your well itās the mindsetā the right thing to do in my heart when your heart is in the right place with love and peace bringing light to the world š with uplifting thoughts just these are the kinds of thoughts that are going to attract positive energies and then all I can say is Iām just doing my part. All I have for you is heart coolies šÆšÆšÆ much love fam š¤š½š IYKYK
